Last night Malachi and I were able to go to the Yatec closing and see Mike, Malachi was very excited to be able to sit with him through the worship time as Mike was a table leader for the weekend and Malachi was missing him very much.
At the closing I was able to hear what God was doing in the lives of the candidates and to see what God had used the Team for. He is so Faithful and uses us as wonderful and uniquily made tools to reach out to His children that are in need. Also at the closing the message was about how we all need eachother even when we leave that place. There was a great video and then a time to get up and say who it is that we needed, so that we wouldnt feel so along in the dark and dreary world. And how the people we need are the people that are going to help us keep going. I sat in my seat and battled with everything that is going on, I am going through this journey as if I dont Need anyone other than God, which is true but as hurt as I am I need more accountablity to be reminding me of God's Love for me, my family and baby and reminders that I NEED to trust HIM and Surrender it ALL to HIM, Which is a very hard concept for me. But as much as I know and knew last night that I Need, I couldnt get myself up to ask for it, I sat and prayed about how much I NEED Jesus, and how much I Need something else but wasnt sure what it is, I have an amazing Husband who already knows I need him, But I Need more. I Need someone that I can talk to, even if they dont understand what is going on, even if they dont know what to say or what to do, I Need my friends and support I NEED YOU, and Your Prayers. I Need to Know that people still care as much as they did before, that they care about me as much as they say they did when I came to know Christ.
So, Jesus,
Please provide for me the healing, the patience, the continued Love, the peace, the support and the Promise that YOU will Heal Our Child, God PLease Give me Peace and help me to continue to trust you.
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